“For My thoughts are not your thoughts,
Nor are your ways My ways,” says the Lord.
“For as the heavens are higher than the earth,
So are My ways higher than your ways,
And My thoughts than your thoughts.
I was given two tasks today at work: get my boss into his office that was locked from the inside, and kill a fly.
After 20 minutes of unsuccessful attempts at getting the door open, I decided to tackle killing the giant fly that was buzzing the room. As it flew past me with a buzz I took a swat with a clipboard, made contact and sent it home-run style with a satisfying smack.
The fly hit the door that I had failed to open, slide to the floor, and then crawled underneath the crack.
The fly was now very much alive and safe inside the room that had thwarted my every effort to enter.
I was a lousy-lockpick that couldn't hurt a fly.
I burst out in hysterical laughter that caused the others in the room to turn and look at me with concern. This fueled my hysterics into pure mania as I struggled to breath between guffaws.
In time I caught my breath and sat down with a smile as I imagined the fly with his little feet up on my bosses desk. My mind reflected back on a conversation that Kellie and I had just a couple of days ago.
We are fully reliant on God.
Every idea we have pursued... every person we have chased down, every door we have pounded on that originated from our planning and brainstorms... has resulted in a closed door.
Our efforts at raising funds are most often met with a "no." Our best ideas to sell our home... rejected. Plans to purchase vehicles... denied. I felt at times like that fly that was smacked by the clipboard.
And (now I laughed again) as I realized that like the fly, I had found myself propelled by a power that was not my own, landing in a perfect place to meet my needs.
Within the last month and totally not conforming with our best made plans we have: received funds to purchase a vehicle, surpassed our pledge amount for financial support, sold the last of our furniture, extended the long term lease on our home to our amazing tenants, witnessed two additional churches come on board as partners, my license as a minister was granted, and I have begun the formal process of ordination online through the Church of God.
God has provided what is needed as we take steps of obedience. He reminds us as often as we need it that this is by His doing and not our own. We are reliant on the provision of God... for everything.
And we are so thankful.
It is amazing to have this calling funded 100% by people who share in this calling and passion. We understand fully that this is not our ministry, our calling, or our mission.
This all belongs to God. You and our family... we belong to Him too.
We are reliant. And we are right where we need to be.
So he answered and said to me:
“This is the word of the Lord to Zerubbabel:
‘Not by might nor by power,
but by My Spirit,’ Says the Lord of hosts.